缘起缘落，可能都只因"爱"

我们都不懂今天快乐的我们，

明天会面对怎样的挑战。

但是我们无可否认的是，

我们都很认真地活着每一天。

有些事情你没期望会发生，

像冥冥之中似已安排。

有些人在意想不到的情况相遇，

有些人甚是出乎意料的，

不明白为何突然彼此变得那么重要。

爱是种信仰吗？而你迷信吗？

很多人口中说一人可以过得多么好，

但在另一方面，有多少人，

多么渴望哪天可以尝到爱情的滋味。

情歌，对不同的人有不同的共鸣。

情人听的是幸福，

单恋听的是思念，

单身听的是期望，

但有谁真的不喜欢情歌呢？

幸福来得太快让人惧怕，

导致我们有时候不懂该抓紧或者放手，

有很多错的感情，

都从“我喜欢你”开始。

“感情可以迟些培养，交往试试看”

这种心态是否是对的吗?

的确有些事情，

要是错过了就真的错过了。

但是这种想法真的是种争取嘛？

很奇怪的问了自己，

“爱”到底是什么啊？

爱的定点却又是什么?

爱真的能包容吗？

还是其实都在约束对方？

它没有一个固定的答案，

我相信每个人心中都有一个标准，

对爱的标准。

“人生其实很简单，

怎么我们都把它们复杂化了？”

还记得打临时工的一天，

看着了一个老爷爷和一个老奶奶在逛街。

没牵手，没秀恩爱，虽然各走各的。

当时我把老爷爷招到了我的档口，

讲解产品给老爷爷听的时候，

然后老爷爷转过身问老奶奶:

“你要买这个吗？” *福建话*

老奶奶看了看老爷爷一眼：

“青菜你吧” *福建话* （随便的意思)

就这样，一种默契，在他们之间，

虽然说随便，

但老爷爷像懂得老奶奶的思想。

两人拿了物品对我笑了，

两人的笑容很慈祥，很温柔，

两人的笑容，就像同一张脸。

想说的是，有种爱就是那么简单，

不需要很狗血的告白，求婚或者恋情，

有种爱，到了人生的后段才了解。

当每个人问我为什么我还单身的时候，

其实我超级无奈的。

第一：真的没人追

第二：我真的没要求高

第三：可能时机还未到吧？

我大概已经说了该回答的吧？哈哈。

还有人问我心里有喜欢谁的时候，

老实说我真的更不懂如何回答，

因为老实说对我来说爱真的太悬殊了，

我真的很不了解是什么 哈哈哈，

所以我还真不懂什么是爱，

可能我还经验不足吧？

对我这种年龄的人来说，

我已经不奢求那种追追然后试试看的心态了，

我说真的现在超随缘，

真的到来的会来，不强求。

到时她会倒追还是我会追求，

真的出现了再说吧。 (现在影子都没!)

因为好久没更新部落格了，

所以今天打算写了些感观，

赞同或者不赞同，

你们都可以comment或者私讯我，

我们可以在继续地讨论。

总之，谢谢你们把这些都读完了，

感激不尽！会努力在更新！

无题

因为情人节的缘故，

加上面子书许许多多的恩爱照，

突如其来的想起这句：

“春蚕到死丝方尽，蜡炬成灰泪始干”。

名句充分说明对一人思念的坚定，

那颗对爱情至死不渝的心，

也充分体现我们现代远距离的感情，

何为”一日不见如隔三秋“，

思念是很悠长的，

然而远距离恋爱真的需要很大的毅力。

这几天都在看着不同的偶像剧，

当然偶像剧绝对逃不过爱到你死我活的戏码，

想说其实我们都懂戏剧多数是虚构的，

90%以上的戏码都不可能会上演，

但人就是喜欢虚幻的事情，

我们都喜欢幻想，

也之所以为何爱情剧可以那么地畅销。

虽然许多人口中说着想要平凡的爱情，

但其实我们都错了，

人，通常都是贪心的。

我们其实都很难满足。

我们这刻拥有着最好的手机，

但当拥有更好的出现，

我们还是会想去拥有。

”众里寻她千百度，蓦然回首，那人却在灯火阑珊处。“

我曾经有个幻想，

在学会这句名句之后，

我也曾希望这未尝哪天可以发生在我身上。

我是个想象力超丰富的人，

我还记得我用了一个夜晚来消化这名句。

还记得那是个美丽的夜晚，

灯笼占据了整个街道，

点亮了原本暗淡的街道。

小孩的笑声感染着街道，

大人的谈话喧哗着街道，

而我是个孤单的小孩，

在不远处是个小女孩，

她提起了一个小灯笼奔跑着。

小女孩的外貌难以忘怀，

足以让人如痴如醉。

街道茫茫人海，

而我心却只惦记着那女孩。
找了找，到了湖边，
去了不同的街道，
搜遍了全部地方却再也见不到那女孩，
那时候的我很低落的放弃了，
回头一看，却发现女孩就在后头。
我们对望了一下，给彼此一个很温暖的微笑。
然后，我便从故事中抽离了。

因文章有感而发，

所以决定取名为《无题》。

谢谢大家的关注，

希望可能更频繁地更新。

Let Bygones Be Bygones

Night might be different for everyone

For philosophy to muse,

For writer to metaphor their life,

For mother to sing a lullaby,

For worker to fight for better tomorrow,

For drunker to forget their day,

For one to be strong after a long day,

For one to confess their hidden feeling.

"Have courage and be kind"

No fairy tale in life,

But lesson could be learnt,

Confess to kindness,

Stay an innocent heart,

We are strong in our way. =)

Expect nothing

Love comes from different way,

Approaching under an unaware condition,

Either happy or sad,

Be thankful it does come to you in the end of the day.

Photograph says no more

Photo is just another story teller,

Brought you back to the old days,

Some might be sweet,

Some might be hurt to see,

But let bygones be bygones.

Sunrise after the night

There is always a sunrise after the night,

A rainbow after the storm,

Everything will be alright at the end,

Life will back into track after a hurricane,

And stop looking for the past,

We have spent too much time on looking the past,

And we neglected that there is always a new chapter for tomorrow.

人生旅途。世界。珍惜

‘百忙中的幸运’

好幸运，

在百忙中庆幸今晚终于可以抛开一切，

纯粹就只想利用文字的能力，

来抒发自己藏在心中好多的闹剧。

‘曾经我们共同的年代’

好想知道是否有人和我一样，

在这个夜晚想起了《我的少女时代》这部剧，

那轰轰烈烈的中学时期，

那些年，我们都觉得世界是我们的，

与那些很单纯地想要去好好爱一个人的年代。

‘记载人生的旅途’

以前就很习惯把心事写进了日记，

里面记载着许多的回忆，

看看以前那个呆头呆脑的自己，

心里刺痛的却是为何当时自己不勇敢去追求。

‘雨，给予的含义’

还记得以前的你，如何看待雨天呢?

雨天是否带了了快乐，

雨天是否带了了悲伤，

还是雨天带给你了恐惧?

我相信每个人心里都有属于自己的答案。

回忆自己的过去，

是否雨天本来对你的含义有所改变？

犹如自己给予自己的思想。

‘世界可以带来寂寞’

总是嘴巴说着一个人过得很好，

却因转头望着窗外的风景，

看着外面宁静的街道，

犹如看见了自己心中的那小房子。

难免在夜晚听见了一首情歌，

那该死的脑不停地出现好多小闹剧。

‘痛了才懂得珍惜’

我们都说跌倒了才懂得痛，

才懂得学会如何保护自己，

然而也学会珍惜自己。

你是否足够勇敢，

给自己痛快地伤一次？

因为痛，才了解什么是最好的。

但，有些人因跌倒，而把自己藏起来。

‘学会感激’

不管他们是否伤害了你，

不管他们是否帮助了你，

不管他们是否曾经是你人生的过客，

但我们必须学会感激每一个人，

因为他们都是我们成长的理由。

在这篇文章的最后一段，我想给予那些曾经让我好幸福的过客们。其实还隐约记得那些年我们初次见面的自己，我是多么地紧张，甚至完全变成了一个没EQ和IQ的小男生，说起话来还带点口吃，但最回忆的却是那份亲切感，那些年天不怕地不怕的许下的海誓山盟，很抱歉也很遗憾我们都无法共同完成。我曾经很自傲自己是一个超浪漫的男生但是最有趣的是，我最自傲的其实我什么都不是，但和一个人在一起的时候，你会发觉她不会因你送她花而开心一整天，反而你的体贴，你给的安全感，她都感觉到。恋爱其实没有电视剧里那么的轰轰烈烈，其实对我来说是淡淡的，我们其实都只是想要好好地珍惜彼此。喜欢一个人，就像是你累了一整天，她的一句加油，足够让你忘掉那一切不开心的事情。其实不管男或女，我们都需要个依靠，一个可倾诉的人，一个可让你忘掉世界的人，而那，可能就是所谓的爱情吧？

Gratitude and Happiness of the Night

I am supposed to finish any of my assignments tonight but in fact I am way too busy in doing other things and it is totally distracted. This is a night to muse perhaps and finally I have something on mind to write and share. Thus, there is something I am fortunate enough to share, it's my balance. I found my balance in life.

As I mentioned in this blog, I am so eager to change and improve myself to become a perfectionist as I am trying to tell the whole world that perfect is existed. Well, if I think through this goal setting again, it was like how innocent I can be and this is hilarious. And I would said this goal setting is way too selfish but now, I have another goal, it is not only about me, but about others.

I am so grateful that I am being in love with people around me and this was the first time I think there is someone that lead me to learn how to love someone and how to love myself. I am an introvert, I seldom start any conversation, but I feel right being around my friends. Surprisingly, I am getting annoyed when it goes to someone I like and reliable. I start to send bunch of messages, try to stalk, know where are they and well, become a really psycho person.

Listening to song and writing something you are thinking now is so precious although it might took out some of the time. I am really appreciate those precious moment although I know there is something I cannot really tell here. ( Perhaps those people know what I meant)

Perhaps good things go last if you appreciate. This is a night with a lot of gratitude and happiness, I hope there is no tomorrow as I gonna live forever in this night.

-To the world, you may be one person, but to one person you are the world.-

 Bill Wilson

Lonely night, silent night.

Lonely night, silent night,

It's a night for student to struggle,

It's a night for people to think,

It's a night for people to speak.

They said, pass through a night might be super long when you're alone. The thought it might be coming out from your mind is super tortured until you insomnia, lost of emotional and even thinking the way to live for tomorrow. But well, single people I bet they are better in controlling their emotional in the night.

There's your friend but still, sometimes you might feel nothing

It's true that single people mix well with their peers but well, friendship sometimes doesn't really cover what's in your mind, heart and soul. When you are growing older, I believe you are getting harder to start a relationship with someone cause when you read more, you understand and lastly you feel more than what you are previously. It could be a reason why you are still single.

People always think that you can choose

Basically I would said people always think that single people have courtesy but well I could say majority yes as long as you're not pretty bad yet. But what stops you? Well, as I mentioned just now understanding cost your time and actually we are not fussy and for me, it might be something cannot be describe, it's like fate or something very superstition, maybe innocent sound better?

Friendship vs Relationship 
I guess both are quite important and I have no reason to say which one is better. Friendship is like your wings, it helps you to see the world whereas relationship like your shadow, he/she knows your dark side but still never leave you alone, always be there with you.

Wings might be poisonous
While wings will be like your equipment, it helps you when you need but bear in mind that choosing a wing is like choosing a horse. It couldn't be always a good horse to drive you all the way but it might be a bad horse to get you into the trouble.

You can have a lot of friends
Yes, you can have a lot, but in 100 people, mostly might just want to take the benefit from you, some might just take you for granted and how much left that you can actually share everything? Humans are designed with different personality and that's what a good creation for not being to be understandable. Lastly, how much in your so called friends list are actually the sincere one who are not being bitchy to talk about your bad behind of you where they are pretended like the kindest human being in front of you? Think about it.

Mad World

Time pass but memories stay

Was a lovely night with his friends, he got to admit that he's actually missing his ex-girlfriend and probably send her a message right after; Was a silly night when he told the one that got away about he is actually still missing her. He tired last night right after he checked on the last message from le girl. He never expect the day when he woke up, his ex actually sent him a really long message by requesting him stop texting le girl. Love is so skinny, heart is so fragile, but still tough is the motivation for you to go on. I remembered an article, they said the toughest person have the brightest smile. He do always believe that everything is alright.

Run away from your city

The long road dress with different color of cars, like a beautiful painting started from wee hour, awake in the early of the morning for their dreams. Dream might be beautiful but it might be suffocated as well. Dealing with kind sort of stress is an ability that human has been given naturally. People tend to find their own way to cope with it while they are under particular situation. For me, I wish I could escape from all the burden just for a while and walk around a place while musing.

Do not let rumors killed

You cannot avoid how people think about you. Everyone has different mindset, perception and thinking. People might think differently about you, so? We need not to explain so much as they could not even believe a single word from you. Sometimes words might be as sharp as knife but stabbing you again and again. Some people might not realize they could verbally hurt you again and again but if you care, it is going to hurt you. There is something we cannot prove sometimes, just let things go naturally. The end of the day, I strongly believe time proved the truth.

Cross the doorstep

Do not let barrier freak you away from achieving something. You could cross your doorstep and come out from your comfort zone. Learning is a difficult process and the toughest you had, the more you experienced. Life is not only a game, you might win or lose. Life is about experience, like a roller coaster, up and down, and you find the excitement inside it.

Believe

Have faith on your own cause you will know how better you can be. Believe that everything will be alright when you come to a crisis. Believe you are not alone cause you have lot of strength besides you. We are born to learn and experience the meaning of life so never give up and have faith what you're doing now.

Truth or Lie?

Life is about a journey. We don't know when is the end and when we begin with. 2014, it's actually the 21 years for me. They told me 21 is just the beginning for life. 21, you are young yet mature, you start to have the whole freedom to do some "illegal" things.

There is some truth about me is that I am wrong by saying that I am trying to stop finding any chances to love somebody else. In fact, I am trying so hard to meet someone I love and suitable. From somewhere, I read about an article started with "The Truth About Someone At The Wrong Time": "Timing is something that none of us can seem to get quite right with relationships." How would it be perfect when we met someone in the right time?

Well, someone told me, if we couldn't get the star, go for the moon, if we couldn't get the chance, make yourself a chance. By the way, I am not talking about how desperate I can be but I just want to share about meeting someone right is rarely hard.

Some might met a right person in first sight, some might not. Some might met a right person with an incident like an event? Well, there's a lot of chances to meet a right person. There is so many populations in this world and I am sure you met at least 100+ strangers a day but frankly to say I am still single.

Sympathy and appreciation doesn't stay a relationship without a spark. Well, stay happy for those who are still single and stay sweet for those who are in relationship. Bear in mind that love doesn't built in one day so never ever make a joke for your own relationship with some small matters thing. To know more, stay tuned with me, here's some update from me. love you guys.

WELL DONE PEOPLE.. !

While you are arguing and fighting with the one who you love, there are few couples who are fighting everyday just to meet the one who is somewhere far apart , even their talks are limited, not even a meet for few months- Distant love. Do you believe in distant love? I guess probably majority of the people couldn’t agree more that distant love doesn’t work out.

Long Distant art

The frustration that your emotional drives you crazy, the sense of craving for someone kill you, loneliness come after when the one you loved isn’t here for you and the sweetness memory that you had torture you everyday. The existence of this feeling prove you that how much importnat for the person, the eagerness you want her/him, the faith you put on your relationship and you believe that this process would make a happy ending.

Time is a challenge, ending is a misery, you wouldn’t know whether both of you could able to come along this, or, might not be. Soon later, you afraid the environment could change both of you, you afraid to lose her/him and the worried and illusion keep appearing on your mind are just annoying.

Time

The result for distant love which may turn out a good ending probably low. But think about it, how far you both have been going through? The bitterness and sweetness you both share is just a prove to show you how worthy you deserve this love.

Never let go your love because of some little small matter, I believe distant love can be come across once both of the candidates are holding the same faith. I could say love never been easy, the commitment for love is the key for you to survive. Stay no regret for your life, temptation is around, be a wise man. 

I am impressed by those couple who are from distant love, I would like to say: Good job, you guys did very well to stay your relationship and I know it is not going to be easy.

Together until the end of the day

Loving Yourself, Have You? =)

Dear imperfection,

He is on his way to be a better person. There is something imperfect- your weaknesses, have you been really talk with them, at least once? There's a mistake we made, but we overcome it and fix it, to make sure that the mistake wouldn't be happened again. There's a dream you want to strike, but it's still way too far for you, but have you been really hold on harder for your dream?

The way to communicate, how long you never been talking to yourself? Intrapersonal might be sounded weird, but, you know yourself better, compared the yesterday. Have you been really reflected yourself when you are working on your journey? Look to the mirror once, maybe you will know how long you never been really love yourself.

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Have to be thankful to your body that always be there for you. He tried to get yourself awake when you are working for your exam from the night to the morning. He reminds yourself to eat while always give you an alert that it's time to get a rest and take some foods.

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Try to love yourself more, he deserves more than everyone else. He's the one who always stand the front line with you. He's the one who always help you to fight together with the illness. Sometimes he is not perfect, but he always be there for you.

Imperfection, he's not an evil, but he is a tutor, to guide you to be a better person. Don't be afraid to fall but be afraid when you are not trying. As I always tell others, everything will be alright, miracle could happen once you hold on your faith. Be honest, there's always a miracle that happened in my life. We couldn't know how much should we paid for your future.

It is true that the world is realistic, outstanding only the way to get recognized from society nowadays? If you think it is, maybe it is. But on the other hand, you think it is not then it would be not. For me, a kind-heart person is much precious than those people who are trying to get all those spotlight.

To be or not to be, it's always a choice for you. That's no a specific answer for you to choose what you wanted to be. Faith and believe, that's the thing that make you become a better person. Imperfection, thanks for the existed, or else we will never know what's the mean for our life. Life, maybe just a long journey for you to be an either good person or perfect person. It's always on your hand.

"I know that we all think we're immortal, we're supposed to feel that way, we're graduating. The future is and should be bright, but, like our brief four years in high school, what makes life valuable is that it doesn't last forever, what makes it precious is that it ends. I know that now more than ever. And I say it today of all days to remind us that time is luck. So don't waste it living someone else's life, make yours count for something. Fight for what matters to you, no matter what. Because even if you fall short, what better way is there to live?"

The Amazing Spider-man 2

To be, or not to be?

女猪脚遇上了男猪脚，一场反反复复的爱情考验，成为他们爱情的见证。偶像剧总是那样地播映着。风风雨雨考验了一个人对爱的真挚，也考验了那人在TA心里是多么的重要。有时候很不侥幸的，你也许会成为爱的奴隶，或者更糟糕的，爱上一个不该爱的人，白话乃是第三者。

Few months ago, le boy met le girl. The first time ever when they chat to each other, le girl always act as an indifferent person. Le boy paid the full hearts for every conversation but le girl actually didn't really pay much attention on their conversation because she knew that she shouldn't to be more closer with le boy.

一次又一次地聊天，女孩开始欣赏男孩的单纯与善良，所以决定答应与男孩出来见个面，那时候的男孩是多么地开心，像是即将遇见自己心中的那个人莫名的紧张与快乐。第一次的见面反而男孩沉默了，女孩相反的特别地愉快。

Le boy doesn't know the first meet up with le girl should consider as a date or not, le boy was being the one who are overthinking now. The journey when le boy and le girl were inside the car was extremely awkward but still, they afford to find something common to talk about.

第一次的见面想说女孩累了也因女孩不是当地人，便到男孩家歇了一个晚上才回到自己的地方。那天晚上，男孩拥抱了女孩，并在那个夜晚对女孩告白了。女孩不做任何反应但却让男孩抱起了自己。

After few couple weeks, le girl started to have feeling towards le boy and they are even holding each other hand when they are going everywhere like they are the couple. Both of them are sweet and people are jealous with their sweetness.

问题出现了，只因女孩有了男友但却爱着男孩，感情问题也开始变得复杂。这时候的男孩迷茫了，是否决定和女孩在一起？还是下定决心地和女孩分开呢？身为女孩的你会为了男孩而割爱？还是选择一脚踏两船呢？

The story will be ended like this, there is all your option to choose what is going on for the next. I am sorry that I took up not much time for this post so perhaps, forgive my bad language and I hope you enjoy.

Stronger, Is The Only Choice?

Have you ever think about: "What's the matter that make you feel stronger?" "What's the reason that make you happy everyday?" Sometimes we don't mean to be perfect, but we just need to be more professional in some ways.

What if studying is part of your interest, what's the reason that makes you hate the assignments that much? We always like to say what if, have you ever think about if we keep saying what if, how about if you don't live out of your life? Then you will probably live with "if", you will never live with your life. I'd rather have a life of "oh wells" than a life of "what if's". 

Someone told me that the glass is not fragile, with super pack particles inside the glass until it's strong enough to stand a pressure. In hand, it's tough enough that makes the glass is so fragile, it can't be added any particles anymore, that's why it's easier to be broken. I would say that, tough people sometimes don't mean to be tough when they reach a certain situation.

Word, as sharp as a dagger, small but still, it's painful and hurt! Think about that, sometimes we can't control people to stop talking about you. Just a reminder, don't EVER tell anyone about your secret, sometimes it might be the most REGRETFUL things that might happened in your life.

Sometimes people like to laugh at your weaknesses, but they don't feel the sense of offended because sometimes people don't know how far you have been gone through from your life. They can be forgiven because they are not mean to be, they don't know what you are experiencing. 

Pardon a person who like to insult you, bear in mind that they are just make you a better person. Take the criticize that has been appeared in your life as a challenge to go far, insult as a sense of emotional control and last, remember everything that happened in life, I believe karma is still existed. Peace for your life, take anything to make you more stronger.

"Scar tissue is stronger than regular tissue. Realize the strength, move on." - Henry Rollins

梦想与现实 vs. 努力与代价

【梦想与现实篇】

爱你的人总会说，只要付出努力，梦想就会在于不远处。相反的，陌生人会告诉你，现实生活中需要付出的有时候不是努力，而是代价。何为代价？有时候我们所想的，跟现实的，其实都只在于一线之差。

羡慕是否暗喻着嫉妒？

坚强是否暗喻着逞强？

识时务是否暗喻着虚伪？

世上拥有许多的贝多芬，不畏惧自己的残缺，追求自己的梦想；世上拥有许多的宫崎骏，用艺术，画出自己的世界，带领别人去看自己从未发现的梦想；世上拥有许多才子，他们文武双全，受到世间的爱戴，用自己的才能去彩绘着自己的世界；世上拥有许多命在旦夕的苦命人，自幼品尝那苦中缠绕生命的药剂，善用每分每秒，追求自己的梦想。也许你从未发现过，身边其实出现过许多为梦想而努力的人。

你，是否拥有梦想？还记得小时候的我们，为了想救人而想当个伟大的医生，为了想保护国家想当个勇敢的国家军队，为了想受人瞩目想当个巨星，我们曾经都为了，而为了... 慢慢地我们组建了自己的梦想，随着年龄我们越来越接近我们的梦想。

有时候梦想其实并不难，别让现实世界影响了自己的心态。梦想迷失在于现实的时候，试着回想为何你坚持到了今天；想要放弃的时候，记得提醒自己其实离梦想已不远。梦想，是一个目标，是让自己活下去的原动力，是让自己开心的原因。

许多的问题，拥有不同的解答，一切最好的答案，只在于你如何看待自己的问题。

一个问题，拥有许多的答案，跟随着你的年龄，答案似乎会与你更加亲近。

.... 加油 ....

Inspire, and be inspired. And, inspire again

It's been a super busier life for the first day of the new semester, rushing something what I supposed to do, working something what I passionate for and looking something which is different in my life. I never thought I can do that much, the challenges have been accepted.

                                 Credit to http://www.theemotionmachine.com/wp-content/uploads/busy.jpg

To be honest, "misunderstood" lead me into one of the organization: AIESEC which brought a really big impact for my life. Life is not always that easier, perhaps I know that effort is the only thing that could make me a better person.

I am a person who keens to know and understand more, I like to take something new as challenge, fix my weaknesses and make it to one of the advantages. I have been lost and failed but it is good to learn from your mistake. AIESEC is always a good place for me to learn and fix my mistakes.

Oops, I should talk about the myLDS, which is a seminar for leadership development. For the inspiring section, I still remembered that our past MCP told us that: "Make as much mistakes as you can and learn from youe mistakes." This sentences have actually changed what I really think about my life.

Flashback moment, think back about your life, did you know how much efforts you paid to walk when you were a child? How many times you fall down and then you stand up again? There is no reason to stop you in doing something, but your mindset is the only thing that could always stop you from doing something.

Perhaps, I can be the one who are there to inspire people, I like to bring the positive impact to others, and I always wanted to be an inspiring people. I took the challenges, gain new experiences and fix my weaknesses, perhaps one day I have experiences enough to be there and inspire people around me.

                      Credit to http://anothermotherrunner.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/12/inspire.jpg                  

Maybe it took a year, or maybe a few years but do not stop yourself from what you wanted to do. Never ever think of giving up because you will never know how closer with your achievement. I like to share my life with people as well as I like to listen the experiences from the others.

Sincerely,
Me


"The most important thing is to try and inspire people so that they can be great in whatever they want to do."
- Kobe Bryant

Learn, from your mistake

Chinese New Year, an awesome celebration to get as much ang pau as you can and gather with all your cousins and I am the one who are prohibit to celebrate. According to the tradition, law had said that we should not celebrate the coming Chinese New Year if one of your grandparents had passed away for the very first year so it is happening to my family, my grandma had just passed away few months ago.

 Photo credit to: http://blasphemedsoldier.deviantart.com/art/Everything-pass-away-only-I-41290342

The aim not to celebrate the Chinese New Year is showing a respect to your grandparents and it is reasonable. I do not blame for this whole boring day but instead that, I am actually missing my grandma. Yesterday was the lunar 31 which is the last day for last year and today is the new year. Family and I went back to my grandma's home like what we used to be every single week before my grandma had passed away.

I never saw my grandma's house locked once in my lifetime but now, this is the first time, the house is locked and maybe... the forever. Now, I feel I am a super bad ass that I am the only one who always claimed there is nothing for me, I am childish to claim my grandma's home as a village and claimed themselves as villagers.

I can't stand with all the dust due to my sensitive nose that might keep sneezing everytime when my family asked to overnight there. I can't stand with the super bad line connection that might lead me out of social network that make me feel insecure and I hate all those super crowded people inside a house, to be honest I always have antisocial personality disorder that might lead me not to talk with anyone.

But then, is this small little thing that would bother about? There is the problem that I always focus on the small little disadvantages rather than the general. The most important thing is that we gather, share the joyness and interact to know more each other but how much I did for that? Not much, I spent my whole life to hate, critic and complain, people always realize something right after something happened.

Be a greater person, don't be a childish person. Hating around the world does not make you feel better but just make you feel worse. Lesson learned, you can't going back to the past but moving forward is another way for you to be a better person.

Learn from mistake, improve yourself is the only way that might make you feel better from the past and, I do believe my grandma will feel proud of me. I miss you grandma. Perhaps, my experience would inspire you. Forgiven can be given if you try not to repeat the mistake, take your first step to change yourself.

"It may be hard for an egg to turn into a bird: it would be a jolly sight harder for it to learn to fly while remaining an egg. We are like eggs at present. And you cannot go on indefinitely being just an ordinary, decent egg. We must be hatched or go bad."    

- C. S. Lewis

Pretty defined pretty,is that true?

Dear Pretty,

What you think about pretty? The inner heart you refer to, or the outside? Generally, people with nice looking defined as pretty, but is that the real definition for pretty? According to Oxford dictionary, it is an attractive in a delicate way without truly beautiful.

In fact, sometimes beauty is an icon for people, people might want to be them, or with them. In magazines or TV ad, you probably will see all those people with nice looking, they defined beauty, noble, temptation and confident. Some of them became our idol and K-pop I guess is a huge influence and iconic for "pretty" in Asia.Besides, some might have a thought for cosmetic surgery.

What's about the people who do not really define as nice looking? They do not deserve to be loved? They do not deserve live as a beauty? There is other fact that people who do not have nice looking have better friends than those people who have nice looking.

In psychological way, people tend to attract by beautiful thing, there is one of the reason why beauty have more friends than for those who are not. Generally, we can see beauty always surrounded with beauty, it is like a magnet field and the attraction will always be there when those magnet is coming out for dinner or even a meal.

                                                          This photo credit to talkvietnam.com

For my opinion, I strongly agree that there is never an ugly exists in our life. There is some thought you should change.Beauty, is actually only an attraction from the skin and it will be no longer there, the time would steal the beauty but a beautiful inner heart, will stay longer and stronger than the outside one.

God is fair, beautiful inside the heart probably have better friends than those who are not. It is right you think that you have lesser friends than those who have nice looking but in fact, did you know how much will stay longer? Much of the people be with them just for fame, there is a lot without the true heart.

I am here to tell those people who have low self-esteem, beautiful can't stay longer and it would be gone one day but beautiful inner heart will never ever be gone and it will grow more beautiful due to the time. Stop envy for those who you think they are better than us, we are actually live better than them. We are same, we live with different way and in fact beauty might feel envious for those who are not as well.

                                    People with simple smile is pretty. =)

Sincerely,
Me

“Nobody should be judged on their looks. Beauty is not found on the body but in the soul. The only thing the media has done is change the definition of the word. I mean being attractive may make it easier to catch some one but being kind and loving is how you keep some one. Also with make up its like putting on a mask some masks are creative and fun most others are just used to cover who you really are up. Be yourself.” 
― Danyon Guthrie-lewis

Letter For Grandmother

Dear Perfectionist,

I had a dream, which I met my grandmother who had passed away, she smiled at me, I almost cried when I saw her.She just smiled, with her beautiful smile, I am so missing my grandmother actually.I tried to hug her but just I brought back to the reality on that moment.

Perhaps, she is living somewhere happily as what I saw her yesterday.She does not look scary but still I felt that warm feeling from that short dream.There is a moment I forgot the reality and missing about my dream and I am so thankful to this dream because it helped me to realize some depressed.

Tomorrow is a gift for you to start again, yesterday is a lesson for you to learn how to be perfect and today is the day you are so lucky to have it, use wisely any second that you got in your hand.Never regret what have you done, feeling shame if you do not use your time wisely.

Sincerely,
Mortal outside the mirror

“At the end of the day, let there be no excuses, no explanations, no regrets.” 
― Steve Maraboli, Life, the Truth, and Being Free

Light Me A Candle

Dear silent night,

Night, still there to accompany me until the dawn has come.Night is a dark magic, it brought unconcious emotional, and loneliness.Middle of the night, I was thinking about why still awake and the reason why I need to struggle on.

I got a call from my parents, she was thinking about me.As a son, I did nothing much for them, just thinking that I am way too selfish for certain things.I was working as a dealer after my secondary six, I do not really give much for my parents.In this moment, I miss my family.

It is raining now, like God knows what I am feeling now. I depressed and stress, due to my academic concern.In this night, I couldn't call myself as a perfectionist but as a normal person.I am so sick to think so much for my future, just I need some rest for tonight, perhaps the music would bring me to the better place.

Goodbye happiness, intelligence and health

Sincerely,
Yuen Sheng

Endless Journey

Dear Perfectionist,

It is an amazing day, a revision day.There is an endless journey, we do not know how far we are going to.Like a sun, with a moon, so near yet so far, a minute, maybe hours, from light to darkness, we met at least once.

Stress is necessary for a perfectionist, perhaps it would be affected a person to do something but sometimes it does not work.Strength, born with different field, might be stamina, academic or artistic but it does not define a person.Sometimes, strength, can be formed, from your hard work.People might think why he/she is so weak compared to others but in fact that, every single hard work the person paid, every single achievement started to grow, just the matter of time.

Precious, somehow is an adjective that suitable for time.Do appreciate every moment to learn, gaining knowledge is something you would never regret to.Learn while you are young, but people have right to choose what they wanted to.Road has been taken, it is the matter you wanted to proceed or not.

Sincerely,
Mortal outside the mirror

“It is not that I'm so smart. But I stay with the questions much longer.” 
― Albert Einstein

Letter for A Perfectionist

Dear Perfectionist,

I've been thinking for so long to reopen a blog and finally, today I launch my blogger life again.Perhaps, it would be different with the previous since the previous is almost talking about my past so I would like to emphasize on my future in this brand new blog.

Perfectionist, a word that doesn't really sound like me but why?In fact, I hope I would like to be an achiever rather than perfectionist but my odd, perhaps it would bring me to the prefect one.Simple life, is something I always emphasize but challenges never bring one person to a simple life, as well as normal life.

I am an adventurer, trying to beyond the boundaries every single moment.In additional, I could not deny that I am a sentimental and emotional person compared to others.Song, like an orchestra, like a conductor, deeply control my emotional, bring me down when review about my past, bring me confident when trying to start something new, bring me some mixture emotion when I am with my friends, colleagues, even sometimes with my parents.

Time, perhaps he could cure me from my pain and he did, with more painful things to cover the previous one.Dear perfectionist, what makes him stand there for so long is that sometimes, he sees nothing, hears nothing and pretend everything is fine.The most amazing moment the perfectionist faced is that he tried to be perfect(good doesn't define him), he made his weaknesses became the proudest,  he took his agony as a lesson, he choose the road have not taken and the last thing was, he believe in faith, miracle is something he knew it is going to be happened in the future.

Sincerely,
Mortal outside the mirror

“You must learn some of my philosophy. Think only of the past as its remembrance gives you pleasure.” 
― Jane Austen, Pride and Prejudice